It was very flattering, to be asked to be the New Years Eve entertainment. To play my keyboard, doing my improvisations. I certainly like the applause, and I like to curry the favor of the old folks.
So I tried to select some material and decide what new materal to make...say, and new patter song with everyone's name in it. And I tried the keyboard for loudness and decided it needed an amplifier.
I rooted around and found an amp, and it needed a power supply. That took some real digging in the junk box, and moving furniture to get at it. By then I realized. I just cant do this anymore. All this rooting and digging and scrounging parts and moving equipment and selecting music and making up words and printing song sheets, and so forth.
I was flattered. They said "we liked your playing last time."
But I had to say, "That was THEN. This is NOW. And NO, I just can't." But oh, how I wnated to.
You can say no, but it takes something out of you.