Friday, January 26, 2007

What Will Happen When ...

I am a little depressed.  (Maybe a LOT depressed.)

I went to parlor to hear live music, but became upset because, after years of suggesting, cajoling, complaining, people ate still seated in the doorway blocking the entrance.  There are empty seats inside that are not available because the doorways are blocked.  I could hear the music okay, but left after a few minutes.  Upset...for no real reason.

Thee are folks who live here who never leave their rooms.  They prefer to sit and watch televsion.  Today, I am one of them.  I prefer to sit atthe  computer to going out of my room.

I had signed up to go on a bus trip to a casino this morning, but cancelled that, too. 

This was the day I planned to go have my car "smogged" (certified smog free) so I could renew my registration, and I am doing nothing about that, either.

I have become a LUMP.  I sit at my computer day after day.  I play my keyboard for myself day after day. I nap in the day time.

What will happen when I become one of THEM? One of those recluses who, like Howard Hughes, prefer to sit in a darkened room watching mvies I have seen a million times before, playing the same songs over and over, typing feeble entries in my journal?

That horrible time seems to be drawng closer.  No wonder I am depressed. 

11 comments:

sieblonde said...

I look forward to each and every one of your entries.    One thing about recluses, I don't think they quite reach the amount of people that you do on line.  :)   Not to worry, sometimes it's good to be a lump.  ~Sie

lacaza3 said...

Sounds like you are upset with the whole situation and are feeling like your not being heard...
Donna In TEXAS

garnett109 said...

Get your butt out of that room tell them to get the hell out of your way cause you ain't taking it anymore and go listen to your music and go get your van desmogged  Do a little yelling if need be , but don't get depressed over it !

mtrib2 said...

You should just tell those people the next time to let you through to the seats that are open as you are a paying customer.    The have no right to block the space.    Give them two choices: they can either move the easy way, or they can move the hard way!    What we can't do with our bodies, we can do with our minds.    I haven't been able to sit at my desk and work on my pen and ink like I would like to and it has had me down and depressed.     I lay on the board I use to read on for my back pain and then get up and work as much as I can at the desk.    I found keeping track of the minutes I work at the pen and ink help me and I can see daily if I am adding minutes.     I lifted too much at the store last Sunday and payed for it the beginning of this week.     The weather also has a big effect on my spine.    I had quit working on my home addition outside for the winter as it is too stressful and I keep getting sick.      My plans are so much better now with the work done and the work in the spring will be well planned in advance.     I learned alot after the building that has been completed so far.    I have my worker to do the lifting for me.      I spend my weeks alone reading and on the computer and enjoy the people I have met in J-land.     mark

msecz said...

Maybe you aren't getting enough sunshine.... that can cause a person to be a bit depressed.... hope you have some sun coming in your room at least even if you can't get out..... winter here in Wisconsin is somewhat depressing too.... we need more sun in winter. My husband has been making a habit of a daytime nap everyday this winter.... I think it has so much to do with less to do in winter.... Hope the sun is shinning for you and maybe some birds to feed too... Sandra

plieck30 said...

This doesn't sound like you Chuck but everyone is entitled to a down day once in a while. Chin up now! Paula

madcobug said...

Maybe you should have started yelling for everyone to move as you were coming through. Don't let it get the best of you. Hope you feel better soon. Helen

magogos said...

Chuck, I read but rarely comment: today I have to say I have been reading you all along because of your indomintable spirit. You are certainly entitled to depressed days, but become like the hermits? Never! Next time you are blocked from what you want to see, just ask(or tell) people to get out of your way, or you'll run 'em down! You have as many rights as anyone else. And you are reallhy cared for by those of us are priviledged to read your journal. Margo

kateh2ocolorart said...

WOW Dad, you sure got a lot of responses to this entry.  I agree with everyone else who said, MAKE noise and GET through!  That being said, there is also the option of some anonymous tip to the fire marshall that there is no passage thru a doorway in an assisted living facility.  ;-)

About getting the van smogged, you have four family members in town who would be glad to help you with that if you would but ASK them!

nyboots said...

the empty chair, blocked door syndrome,,,,that makes me insane in my place!! I try to have the first people in sit up front but it seems to happen all the time.If u find a solution, please let me know..and what ever u do,,dont let it stop u from being active and going to the activitites!!!!!!!You know how I feel about that!!!

tendernoggle said...

Ok Chuck...You get to be depressed every once in a while too...but make those buggers move their butts out of your way the next time you want to get in the room!!!! You love music and should be able to hear and see it being played.
Take care my friend,
love ya,
carlene